3 months Clear
7 May 2009, 18:47
It’s been 3 months since my last confessi… erm, aneurysm.
I feel reasonably normal for someone not particularly normal. I have started driving again. I’m down to 1, maybe 2 panadeine forte a day. I’ve been back at work for 2 weeks (half-days), but not doing all that much. Talk of me needing to “settle back in” to work, which is fine, I appreciate the sentiment but I need to be productive. I need to feel like my life is back to normal and that no-one is flicking out the cotton-wool. I need to feel normal after having gone through something that is really not all that normal. That no-one should have to go through.
The only physical residue of the operation (apart from the headache) is the itchy scalp over where they made an 8 inch incision, stretched a chunk of skin back and sawed into my skull (sorry, did that come out of my mouth?) It can be maddening at night, but if that’s all that’s left of the whole experience, I’ve done very well.
I still feel tired at the end of the day and want to curl up in the foetus position and let sleep take me. I am drinking a SideCar, which makes me feel normal (if a little tipsy). I am having an argument with McG, which makes me feel normal. We are making up and I am giving my family the family cuddle we nearly didn’t have. That makes me feel normal (if a little emotional).
There are dishes to do, clothes to wash, TV to watch, the house is a mess, all NORMAL.
I have never wanted to be “normal”, but this week, that’s all that really matters…
Permanent Link | - Hey Kinki,
Glad to hear you are “normal” – sometimes it’s all we can hope for. Or at least it’s a step on the way to being “fabulous” again!! I have noted though that Annie seems to have given you some time and inspiration for your blog again which is great.
Best wishes for your ongoing recovery – take care and keep writing!
— vanessa May 11, 06:00 PM #
